Wish I had an angel

Cold nights and empty words, day by day walking like the wind, with nowhere to go.. I want to rest but the shadows doesn't let me stop.. storms around my steps. life with no understanding.. tired of doing everything right, be the best, be almoust perfect, but nothing seems enoght.. I think there is no one to protect me.. and I think there's no one to care for me.. I don't even know if there's someone above us. or under us. I wish to have an angel, to take care of me, to listen to me, to understand me, to protect me from my shadows, against my ghosts, from my darkness.. protect me from my illusions, and my desperate thoghts.. against my illness.. I wish I had an angel to protect me against myself..